I just like to say i am getting pretty good at the whole longboard thing…well lets just say im getting more confidence! Soon i will take on a downward hill! not too soon though…i dont want to die! lol Still dont know how to stop! omg!
I now again have that feeling of this isnt what i want to do for the rest of my life! Im just bummed i guess but its there again. i think i have an idea of whats missing but i cant take classes cause i need to start saving for a car….then ill have to make payments on that car plus insurance so i wont have enough money for classes :/ ugh i wish alot of things in my life could just be a little different idk….
UUUUGGGGHHH i messed up again on something super stupid at work. I just need to step my shit up I swear if this was any other job i would have been gone cause you dont get this many chances! IDK i just think that sometimes I need to go to another job because right now i work for my family and its so hard to make mistakes, cause it directly effects you and you dont go home and can escape it my boss and coworkers go home with me. I should have just got another job somewhere else. I hope it gets better, im just sad.
Tumblr is the place where i can say what i want, too many judge-y people on facebook. Everyone here is just like hmmm random post *continue to scroll*
Oh also not everyone on tumblr is posting for people to comment on their shit, gah thats annoying oh let me post something like “Going to run at the park in my sports bra got to get in shape im fat” slut you arent fat and stop being such an attention whore dang lets just let everyone know what you ate and when you poop too! geez
Dont you hate the feeling where you really think you are putting more emotionally into something then someone else? Its really scary cause one day they can just up and go and there you are looking stupid with your heart ripped out, i just think you have been with someone for a certain amount of time you should know with all your heart that you are gonna be with them. Its just scary when you feel they dont seem to be sure or something. I dont like feeling like i dont know whats going to happen. I feel i should be trying to protect myself….ugh.