So i am waiting for our little break to be over in art so I shall make a post about apartment hunt 2k12. MY DREAM APARTMENT WAS STOLEN FROM RIGHT UNDER MY NOSE!!! I was depressed for a good hour before I got over it and was ready to look for some more! AO said we can call around and look today. He has specifics and so do I.
-Pool(I can work without)
-Utilities paid for
-Close to school
-400-600 is my price range.
Thats about it. I dont care about the floors Ill work with whatever! But Im excited and still want to move out ASAP just cause I am ready to start our lives together under one roof. I am over getting married first, that dream is not that important to me. Because we are already act like we are married anyway. Whats another year? Plus I want to have a kick ass wedding and need my parents to have money before I can have that lol I am pretty sure the money thing will be soon.
I just hate how I am always not that important enough to even text or talk to when there is a fight. Its super frustrating. This was you being a jerk and I am here feeling shitty, I really dont get it. I am supposed to be reading and I cant because im upset. You know that when I get upset I just think about why I am upset and work myself up but no you just care about yourself and how much cooler you are than me. SMH When did you get like that? When you would get annoyed by me when My little sister and me do something goofy by singing a chant Really. Think about how lame that sounds. You didnt like what we were doing because it “annoyed” you so you leave 10mins early. Wow. That really hurt. Then you say bye to me by patting me on the head, What i am a dog now? Cool. I hope you’re happy. Cause I am not But you wouldnt know that because you dont care to text me and ask me if I am upset. Nope. You just go about your business like it doesnt even phase you. Fine whatever. I am going to act like you see if you like it.
Please people do no respond to this post. For the love of my sanity.
This is kinda hard to explain but even with the new major change I still don’t think I fit in. I guess I was expecting to feel apart of the theatre department or something. I just think these theatre kids are a bit strange. But I’m pretty sure it’s a theatre kid thing.
You see in basketball I felt like I belonged. I knew I did, well atleast for a while until the love and passion for playing the game went away. Anyone who has followed my blog knows I’m still searching for something or things to fill that hole. I think acting is it, or teaching. I just want to feel that feeling of belonging, of knowing this is what I am supposed to be doing with my life. Oh I wish it was that easy.
I am glad i changed my major. I know that for sure. I really need to stop bringing myself down. It’s only the first week eleni cool it. I just need my Oprah ah-ha moment to happen already.